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I Was Not A Supermom Today

I was not a supermom today

Today was a hard day.

Today I woke up early, not my favorite. But I had to be at work before you even wake up. You were asleep in my bed. You crawled in and woke me up in the middle of the night, as you do most nights lately.

You woke up while I was rushing to get ready, and you begged me to lay back down with you. I hate it when I feel guilty for leaving. Plus, your daddy never matches your shoes to your outfit, and I know it’s silly… but I feel better when you match at school.

I still wasn’t feeling so hot at work today.

I didn’t have enough gas in my car to make it all the way to campus today, so I had to get some on the way, and then I was late for class.

I was sick on Tuesday, so I was unaware that we would be having debates in my favorite class and so I was obviously super unprepared. NOT my favorite class today. I hate questioning my intelligence, as I spend a lot of time exercising my brain….exhausting my brain.

There was so much traffic in the parking garage after that particularly horrible class, that I was never going to make to your daycare in time to pick you up. So I panicked and called your dad, and whined about how I was doomed to be a failure because my plate is so overwhelmingly full that sometimes the Grand Canyon seems small.

But our friend picked you guys up for me. And you got to jump on the trampoline while you waited for me. You didn’t mind at all, but I did.

I was not a supermom today

I hate the days that bump up against all of my limits. The ones that remind me that I really can’t do it all, that juggling really isn’t my thing, and that there are really only 24 hours in a day.

Today I yelled too much. I let the little things get to me. I made you peanut butter and jelly for dinner. I microwaved my salmon…and I left all of the dishes in the kitchen.

I usually feel proud that I am a mother, a wife, a full time student, a Guardian ad Litem, and an employee all wrapped up in one busy body. Because sometimes people elect to be just one of those things and it is enough. But days like this one force me to remember that I don’t really get to do my best at any one thing, because I do so many things. And that I have to be okay with that.

At least these days are only one day long, and tomorrow starts anew. I know that my fortunes surely outnumber my grievances, and that even my deepest sources of frustration are blessings denied to many.

I also am sure that my many responsibilities will still be there tomorrow…and I’ll have my cape ready.

i was not a supermom today

 

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  1. LisaLDN says

    That is such an amazing way to put it – “These days are only one day long”! I love that! We aren’t all perfect all the time, and even when we feel like failures, someone else aren’t likely to see it that way! Great post 🙂

  2. LisaLDN says

    That is such an amazing way to put it – “These days are only one day long”! I love that! We aren’t all perfect all the time, and even when we feel like failures, someone else aren’t likely to see it that way! Great post 🙂

  3. Mariam says

    What a beautiful post. You absolute marvel. You are a superwoman everyday. Every mother is. As a woman I am so proud you are so many things. Honestly do not understand how you are studying and working and being a mother but it’s because YOU ARE a mother that you are so super. I have the greatest respect for you. A beautiful way to share your feelings! ?

  4. Mariam says

    What a beautiful post. You absolute marvel. You are a superwoman everyday. Every mother is. As a woman I am so proud you are so many things. Honestly do not understand how you are studying and working and being a mother but it’s because YOU ARE a mother that you are so super. I have the greatest respect for you. A beautiful way to share your feelings! ?

  5. Chelsea says

    You are a supermom to me! My goodness. You have so many roles and you do your best with each of them. That’s all that your family, kids, work, and ANYONE can ask for. <3

  6. Chelsea says

    You are a supermom to me! My goodness. You have so many roles and you do your best with each of them. That’s all that your family, kids, work, and ANYONE can ask for. <3

  7. Katy Ipock says

    It’s amazing how one rough day can make everything feel horrible. I am also grateful that “These days are only one day long.” I’m taking that mantra with me. <3

  8. Katy Ipock says

    It’s amazing how one rough day can make everything feel horrible. I am also grateful that “These days are only one day long.” I’m taking that mantra with me. <3

  9. Carissa Garabedian says

    Sometimes I think days like this make us all a BETTER mom, it is a reminder that we do not have to to it all, it does not have to be “perfect” and our babies see that we are also people, nit just moms. Thanks for the honesty

  10. Carissa Garabedian says

    Sometimes I think days like this make us all a BETTER mom, it is a reminder that we do not have to to it all, it does not have to be “perfect” and our babies see that we are also people, nit just moms. Thanks for the honesty

  13. Jaime says

    I so get this! I hate the days when my PMS hormones are raging and I snap at my daughter over her being a toddler. Definitely not a supermom, but sometimes we just have to give ourselves grace.

  14. Jaime says

    I so get this! I hate the days when my PMS hormones are raging and I snap at my daughter over her being a toddler. Definitely not a supermom, but sometimes we just have to give ourselves grace.

  19. Christina Boyer says

    I absolutely love this post. I feel like this is me too. We always think we can do it all and we hate to admit we can’t but it’s okay. We are all human. You are not alone. Hoping you have a great weekend!!

  20. Christina Boyer says

    I absolutely love this post. I feel like this is me too. We always think we can do it all and we hate to admit we can’t but it’s okay. We are all human. You are not alone. Hoping you have a great weekend!!

  23. Hil D says

    Oh man I feel you. My kids have been eating PB&J a lot too, I keep hitting my limit with no relief in sight. Being a mom can be so hard, but we are all human and posts like this make me feel better and normal to know I am not alone.

    • Amanda Rinehart says

      I’m glad I made you feel less alone. I think we all go through these days and think we’re the worst mothers ever because of them, but actually everyone has them. 🙂

  24. Hil D says

    Oh man I feel you. My kids have been eating PB&J a lot too, I keep hitting my limit with no relief in sight. Being a mom can be so hard, but we are all human and posts like this make me feel better and normal to know I am not alone.

    • Amanda Rinehart says

      I’m glad I made you feel less alone. I think we all go through these days and think we’re the worst mothers ever because of them, but actually everyone has them. 🙂

  25. Shann Eva says

    Awe. I had a day like that this week too. I yelled way too much because I was tired myself, but that’s no excuse. Being a mom is definitely really hard, one of the hardest jobs I’ve ever had. Plus, you have so much other stuff going on. I think you are still Supermom all the time.

    • Amanda Rinehart says

      Thank you, but I certainly don’t do a super job all the time. lol. Us moms are too hard on ourselves sometimes. Glad you got through your bad day and thanks for reminding me that I’m not alone.

  26. Shann Eva says

    Awe. I had a day like that this week too. I yelled way too much because I was tired myself, but that’s no excuse. Being a mom is definitely really hard, one of the hardest jobs I’ve ever had. Plus, you have so much other stuff going on. I think you are still Supermom all the time.

    • Amanda Rinehart says

      Thank you, but I certainly don’t do a super job all the time. lol. Us moms are too hard on ourselves sometimes. Glad you got through your bad day and thanks for reminding me that I’m not alone.

  27. Becky @Disney in your Day says

    It happens to everyone, and sounds like you have a ton on your plate! Some days I feel like I just need to get through it and get to the next one. Hope things turn around soon 🙂

  28. Becky @Disney in your Day says

    It happens to everyone, and sounds like you have a ton on your plate! Some days I feel like I just need to get through it and get to the next one. Hope things turn around soon 🙂

  31. Nikki says

    There will always be days like this and it only makes you stronger in the end. They will forget and only remember the good times anyway. You’ll see it as the day from hell, they’ll see it as the day so and so picked them up from day care and they got to jump on the trampoline and eat pb&j’s. It’ll be okay mama <3

  32. Nikki says

    There will always be days like this and it only makes you stronger in the end. They will forget and only remember the good times anyway. You’ll see it as the day from hell, they’ll see it as the day so and so picked them up from day care and they got to jump on the trampoline and eat pb&j’s. It’ll be okay mama <3

  35. Connie Gomez says

    Such a beautiful reflection. Best thing is yes, our days do start over! You are amazing and I know your children and Husband know that!! <3 Very beautifully stated! -Here from Blog Love Project via FB.

  36. Connie Gomez says

    Such a beautiful reflection. Best thing is yes, our days do start over! You are amazing and I know your children and Husband know that!! <3 Very beautifully stated! -Here from Blog Love Project via FB.